The past few months have been a daze of choices, decisions and contemplation. It seems as if the older we get, the more weight our decisions carry. Choices of education, marriage, children, finances and employment each carry burdens, weights and struggles along with them. My mind has been inundated with the reality that the choices being made today not only have consequences for tomorrow but implications far beyond what I can see.
In the past, fear of the unknown has been a paralyzing factor. Fear of failure has paved the way for inactivity. And the fear of comfort keeps me safe in stability. Instead of pressing forward in confidence in the faith I have in God, I, all too often, get paralyzed in consequential choices.
The plots for these decision runs circles constantly through my psyche. In my mind, I act as the author penciling every feasible option for his work, thinking through all the possibilities and the best outcomes for each of the scenarios.
These decisions are not detrimental or painful, they are beautiful opportunities, but they have no definite conclusion or predictable outcome.
How will we get this done? What will happen if we? Have we thought about? Do we have enough?
Each new question brings a wellspring of new issues and fears.
In this heavy unknown lies the beauty of faith. It takes no faith if we already know the outcome of our decisions. It takes no reliance on the Father for sustenance if we already know, in the end, how it all gets taken care of.
It’s here, in the thick of uncertainty, that the faith we put in Christ must become reality. Our decisions must be reconditioned from “How will we?” or “What happens if we?” to “What is Your will?” and “What do You want?”
Our decisions are incredibly telling.
They show where our loyalties lie. They shape how our future will develop. They attest to where our faith rests.
Ultimately, our decisions should arise from faith and not fear. As this begins, they move us from a selfish mentality to a selfless motivation.
This is the beauty, the adventure and the risk of the unknown.
It requires faith in something and clearly implicates what your faith is grounded in.